I know post grad is complicated for everyone, but I feel like I’ve done a number on it these last two years. Between becoming deathly ill with Lyme Disease, changing up my bipolar medications, and trying to tackle normal post grad activities, it’s gotten a little crazy at times.
My battle with Lyme is not over, I don’t quite have it in remission yet, though I’ve been doing so well that we’ve finally started cutting back my antibiotics. I’ve been thrilled about that because being on antibiotics for a year and a half is really brutal on the body. I’m also excited because my activity level has returned to normal. I feel like I’m finally able to live my life instead of watching it fly by me while I sit unable to move on the sofa.
Health really is something you don’t truly appreciate till its gone, but I don’t think that’s a mistake I’m going to make again. After losing a year and a half to this disease and having another six months slowed by it, I can proudly say that I’m going to enjoy any health my body can manage to give me, because there is so much I want to do and see, and I didn’t realize how lucky I was because I got bit by that horse fly.
It’s hard to say that I’m glad I got sick, because I’m not, but I’ve learned a ton from it, and God is good at turning my negative life experiences and turning them into blessings. So, I’m glad I was able to extract the good out of such a terrible illness.
Someone recently commented on this blog to me and said they were surprised that I didn’t write more about Lyme Disease, after all, I’ve lost over a year to it, you’d think I’d want to talk about it. But the fact is this disease has been the only thing on my mind for such a long time that I was happy to write about anything but it. I’ve covered all sorts of mental health topics because I was stuck on my physical health. I was trying to tackle what I knew I could make progress on. I was trying to write solid advice and I was so sick there was no way I was going to give it on Lyme. I teetered on hopelessness frequently, and now that the hope has been restored I feel open to talk about it a little more.
As for my mental health? My medicines are a little off with my bipolar disorder. Nothing extreme, just enough to notice, so I’m working on getting them adjusted. The last few weeks I’ve been charting everything because I’ve been changing medication for my body and for my mind and I want to make sure everything is recorded so I know what was caused by what. It sometimes feels like a full time job in itself, but it’s one of the best ways to make sure I get healthy, so I don’t mind doing all the dirty work. I might do a blog post on charting your moods and your body, because maybe one of you would find it useful. My mental health posts have been my most popular, which thrills me, because it’s one of the things I feel like I have the most to share about.
As for other updates? I’m happily in a relationship with a great man. I’m adding hours onto my work schedule and working towards becoming a full-time employee. And I finally feel like I’ve gotten my life back.