The Year of Thanksgiving

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I always try to write a Thanksgiving post. It helps me put my life in perspective. There are so many things for me to be thankful for, and a lot of time I end up overlooking them. I’ve gotten used to not having to worry about food and shelter, so sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have it.

This year has been a little different than most though. I’m not longer struggling as much with my health. I don’t feel stuck in slow motion. A lot of exciting and meaningful things have happened to me this year and I’ve felt fully present for all of it. I don’t mean to say that I’ve been thankful for each and everything in my life as I should be, but I do mean that I’ve been more grateful over all.

You think about your shelter when you’re buying your first home. You think about love a lot when your getting engaged and married. You think about how wonderful all the people in your life are when you have them all together in one giant room for a party.

It’s just been a little different this year, and I’ve been better because of it.

Between all the sickness and sadness that surrounded it the last few years have been a wild ride. There have been good things, but everything seemed to have a heavy shadow. These years happen to the best of us, and they’ll happen to me again, that’s one of the reasons this year was so important. We need years like this to remind us how lucky we are and how much we have to be thankful for. And whether you believe it or not, years of Thanksgiving happen to us all as well. We only need to keep working upwards, they’ll eventually come.

While you’re waiting make a list of all the things your grateful for, you might find that the year of Thanksgiving doesn’t need to be the best year of your life, it might just need to be a year that you’re aware of everything.

Now that things have settled down I’m going to try to make next yea a year if Thanksgiving to, so that I can enjoy this gratitude everyday, even in the darkness, because man, does it make you feel alive.

Creating goals for 2019 and reflecting on those from 2018:

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Looking back on my goals for 2018, I can say that I didn’t knock them all off my list, but that’s how it always goes, isn’t it? Maybe not, maybe you’re much better at this than I am. But I’m still proud of my half finished list, because a lot happened this year that wasn’t on my list, so I still feel like I came out ahead.

  • More time on hobbies, less time online: Check! But could use to do even better at this. I still spend too much time online.
  • Read the entire bible: Opps. I started strong and then faded out.
  • Be more aware of what I’m eating: Check! My diet has been so great this last year, really unrecognizable from 2017.
  • Being a better friend: Half check? I did better some months than others.
  • Read more than 30 books: I read about ten, but to be fair they were all over 600 pages. That counts, right??
  • Finish writing two novels: I finished one! Still not bad!
  • Wean myself off sleeping pills: Check, haven’t taken one in months!

Now for my upcoming goals for 2019:

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