The decade of change and what’s still the same:

 

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I’ve written and rewritten this blog post a few times. How do you summarize a decade? Especially one that started when you were fifteen and ended when you were twenty five. Those years are massively transformative. It seems like everything possible has been fit into the last ten years, from learning to drive to buying a house and getting married. The past decade has taken me from a child to a woman. It’s seen hard times and joyous times. It’s been remarkable in every sense of the word.

Maybe it’s strange for us as humans to take time and break it down into chunks like we do. It seems so logical to celebrate the new year, to be able to hit refresh, and to re-calibrate. But too look back over longer periods of time and try to make them a season of our lives just doesn’t work as well. So much happens in ten years time. So much changes. We are in every sense of the word, different.

So I’m going to do something a little different. I’m gong to focus on the parts of me that have stayed the same, because I feel like that says more about me than anything else. The people around me have changed. My place in the world has changed. My daily activites have changed. But there are also quite a few things that have stayed the same.

  • I still want to have a family. When I was 15 I wanted to grow up and get married and have kids, now that I’m older and married I still want to have kids and I was right when I thought that marriage would be one of the most influential things in my life. To marry is to gain a life partner and I’ve managed to find that in the last ten years, and though it didn’t happen at all like I planned, I started down the road that I only dreamed of at 15.
  • I still have a lot of the same morals, though God and society has slowly been fine tuning them. I’ve grown a lot and I’ve become better in a lot of ways, but my want to be better has not ceased. I have not drifted from my moral compass even as it has matured and changed. This is actually something I’m pretty proud of, because though I’ve made mistakes like every other person I’ve stayed true to myself through most of it. I haven’t faltered in major life altering way.
  • My hobbies have endured. I have gained some new ones over the last ten years, but I have also more thoroughly explored the ones I’ve had since I was young. This is amazing because not only does it mean that I’ve been able to approve, but those hobbies I started with when I was fifteen have led me into learning programs that help me in my job. They have helped me through some hard times when I had little else to do and lean on. And, as someone who has creative hobbies, they have helped me express myself and process my emotions. And there have been a lot of emotions to work through in the last ten years.

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Your dreams don’t have to be big.

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In college I remember being hit upside the head with a realization.

My dreams are boring.

Everyone around me was talking about big dreams. They were talking about changing the world. They were talking about having the kinds of jobs that only a select number get to enjoy. They wanted to be professional nomads, traveling the world and working digitally. The ones that didn’t care about work had huge adventure bucket lists. They’d talk for hours about their plans, some of which that sounded so big that it’s hard to believe they could happen. Then they would turn to me and say “Anna, what do you want?”

“A house on the outskirts of town. A husband. Some kids. A horse. A job that allows me to afford it.”

“That’s it?”

“It’d be really awesome if I could get some of my novels published too. I’d like to have people read them.”

That’s all I want, those are my biggest dreams. They say shoot for the moon and if you miss you’ll land among the stars, but maybe I want to land on a three acre lot somewhere in North Carolina.

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Five Ways to Keep Your Dreams Realistic:

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I wouldn’t consider myself a planner, I hardly ever plan my days, I’m bad at scheduling, and I generally get distracted. However, when it comes to my future I have a few set dreams which are really concrete. I, in all meanings of the word, have a plan. I might not have all the steps figured out, but I’ve identified the big ones and am working my way towards it.

Sometimes when I look at this plan I wonder if I want to much, I think it’s a thought we can all relate too, whether it is in a moment of doubt or whether we actually just have blown our dreams up a little too big. I find myself going over my plan, piece by piece, to see if the overall dream might be out of reach.

I’ve had friends who had high expectations for everything and I’ve watched them get disappointed. So I decided to build a goal into my plan: keep my dreams big but realistic.

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Dealing with Roadblocks:

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It’s safe to say that we’ve all been held up by something we could have lived perfectly happy without. And it’s safe to say that when we are held up by these things we often get frustrated and annoyed. It’s only the natural response, when things are in our way we like to move them, but often times things are much to large to simply push out of our paths.

I could list a million little roadblocks that I’ve come across, the most recent one being this awful case of Lyme I have currently. My beautiful summer plans for after graduation disappeared. I haven’t moved out because I haven’t been able to pick up all the work I would need too. In fact, if I had moved out I’d have to move back in. I feel like I’m not making much progress and I’ve missed out on things I was looking forward too (including a postponed trip to NYC.)

Roadblocks suck, and dealing with them isn’t always easy. Sometime the only way to deal with them is to wait, and if you’re anything like me waiting seems almost unbearable at times. So what do you do? How do stand behind a roadblock and just deal with it?

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What I Want is Boring:

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It seems that everyone I know is all about the bigger and the better. They have dreams I can’t even touch and want a lifestyle so far from standard. There is nothing wrong with that, in fact, it takes big dreams to go big places. But what I want has always been a little different. This sounds funny to say on a lifestyle blog, but the life I want… is kind of boring. It’s standard. I don’t really care if I’m rich. I don’t want to be the most successful. I don’t even want to have huge chunks of time off.

I want to find that American Dream everyone speaks of, but with a twist. It’s come to mean a lot in the business world, almost a symbol for being able to work your way to the top. But the top is a lot of work, and I’m happy being lower on the totem pole.

See, I don’t want to live in a big city. I don’t want to go to big parties. I don’t want to have to own all these fancy clothes. I just want to be on a little house with a piece of land, a horse, a 9-5 with some freelance side work, and hopefully at some point a family.

It’s such a typical dream that people tend to tell me to dream bigger.

But I don’t need to dream bigger, and you don’t really need to dream bigger either.

Don’t let the craze of the world tell you that your plans aren’t enough.

The Dream Schemes: How Future Dreams Change

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We’ve all experienced that time where were standing with the thing that we wanted within reach and we pull back and say “but I don’t really want it.”

It’s normal, and it’s hard to wrap our heads around in the aftermath. We’re logical beings, we know that what we want changes, but there are some dreams which we are sure won’t, and when they do we’re struck by them and unsettled.

Dreams develop. We might think we want to be a big named published author and then a few years down the road realize that, no, self publishing and just having the work out there would be more than enough to make us happy, because we don’t have the time or the money for the rest of it, and to be honest, other things are more important (can you tell that this one is a personal one?) And that’s okay.

There isn’t a problem with lowering your bar, because normally when you do it’s because you’ve raised something else up. If you’re lowering it only because you don’t think you can make it, that’s a different story, but the balancing act between dreams is normal. Your priorities change, and guess what? They will keep changing, because you’re still changing. As long as you’re keeping dreams and goals, then the rest doesn’t matter.