Life Updates: About my current relationship with my Lyme Disease

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I have a lot of posts sitting finished in my drafts right now, but another one is itching to come out of me.

I’ve been sick with Lyme Disease for over two years now, a year and a half of that almost completely thrown away, wasted as I wasted away on the sofa. The disease came sudden and it came fast, but it’s been sticking around ever since. I wrote one big post about it but it hardly goes into the hopelessness. It can hardly express the pain.

Truth is, I’m doing much better now. My doctor has pulled me off a lot of my antibiotics, though recently I back slide and had to have some reintroduced. I realized that I hadn’t shared that Monday night after even more people asked me if I was finally well. I’ve been asked that a lot actually. It doesn’t bother me much, I understand that I seem well. I’m almost at a normal activity level, I finally feel like I have my life back. I’m very happy. I can see how it all could appear to mean I’m finally healed, but I’m not yet. My Lyme isn’t in remission. I’m still actively fighting it every step of the way and it’s hard. It’s really hard. Sometimes it frustrates me to tears, but more often than not it’s lit a fire in me.

I hate calling sicknesses a blessing, but God has a way of taking curses and making them bow to His will. And He’s done that with this one. He’s given me so much perspective, so much hope, and He’s taken my world view and blended it so much that even in my fear I can see how truly blessed I am.

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Summer Fitness:

IMG_1469 copyI’m writing this sore as ever from working out yesterday- but also while eating pizza. Does that tell ya’ll a bit about how this is going to go? Let’s just say that I’m not going to keep myself from enjoying things. Pizza, occasional desserts. It’s wrong not to treat yourself!

  • Workout Twice a Week: My mom has a personal trainer she works with and he lets me go use his machines. I’m running- God help me.
  • Ride Two/Three times a Week: This is already something I do, but it’s good to keep up! Some people don’t think it’s a workout- they aren’t working the horse if they say so.
  • Drink more water: I’ve spent the last two days drowning in the stuff. It’s good though, despite constantly going to the bathroom.
  • Cut down on snacking: This is actually the big problem. I’m a huge grazer, so we’re going to try to cut back on this.
  • Be able to run a mile without stopping to catch my breath: I can run a mile, but I always take breaks of either being still or walking for a bit (sad, I know)