My Four Favorite Pregnancy Books:

September 9, 2021Leave a comment

I promised I wouldn’t become a motherhood blog, but I stated that I would share bits and pieces of this journey with you all, because this blog is focused on my thoughts and on mental health, both which have been tied to motherhood lately.

It’s also been a while since I posted a book review (but don’t be fooled- I’ve read over 80 this year) so I thought I would tackle a question I was asked recently by a friend.

What pregnancy books have a truly loved?

I know at least two of these titles are popular ones, but the other two I’m not so sure about, the fact is that almost all my books this year have been based on what my local library has available on e-book. In total I have read eleven books on motherhood this year, from pregnancy to baby books. What can I say, I like to be as prepared as I can. But here are my top four!

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Pregnancy mood swings remind me of my bipolar mood swings. So does overcoming them.

April 20, 2021Leave a comment

Pregnancy reminds me of my bipolar disorder. That’s a weird statement to make, but it’s true. Your hormones are all over the place, and not unlike the chemical reactions in your brain that make you cycle from manic to depressive. It finds you in the exact same strange space were you know your emotions aren’t 100% correct or rational but you know you are feeling them fully anyway.

A lot of the mood swings make me ponder the lessons I’ve been trying to teach myself for years. Is this a rational feeling? How can I try to turn it into one without devaluing the fact that it is real?

Just because you know an emotion isn’t right doesn’t make it go away. Knowing your manic doesn’t let you switch off your manic traits like a light switch, but it is a start, and lets be real, you have to start somewhere. It lets you start trying to fight for control.

I’ve found most of my control in this disease through medication, but even those of us who have had a lot of luck with our bipolar medications can tell you that we still swing some, and I still have to take on those swings one on one. Rational brain verses the chemical brain.

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Life update: Baby on board

March 16, 20212 Comments

The title says it all, doesn’t it? I’m pregnant! And both my husband and I are thrilled.

It’s been a long road to get here. We had to get my Lyme Disease in remission before we could start trying, so if you’re wondering where the posts about chronic illness have gone this is also a post to say that I got Lyme dormant. I thought about making a post to announce that, I did on my personal social medias, but I was fighting very hard with the fact that that it might come back. I was worried I’d announce it only to have to make a post a few months later saying “jk!” and it made my gut twist so I simply never made the first one. It’s possible that Lyme does come back sometime later in my life, but for now I can say that I’m done with it.

Now back to the baby- I don’t have a lot of news to share on the baby per-say. This isn’t going to become a motherhood blog overnight, it is still mainly a mental health blog, but it is also a reflection of my mind, so there will be some motherhood related content, which is also very much needed in the mental health, selfcare, and personal development world.

I will tell you more when I have more to tell, but for now just know we are very excited and wanted to share our wonderful good news!